I am Chhavi Negi. I am 25 and like any other 25 year-old, I think the world is my oyster and like any other 25-year old, I think my best days are going by and I am not able to do anything. It is a weird feeling being 25. You just hit the quarter century and if you "plan" on to live a 100 years then one-fourth of your life is over before you even realized it.
You start thinking "What do I want?" "What have I done till now!" "How do I get what I want"? And then starts the series of turbulent thoughts, the planning of what course to take now, the analysis of the options available, the TO-DO lists etcetra etcetra. But did you ever think that till school you didn't have much of a life, per se. It is mostly teachers, parents, tutors, principals, elder brother sisters to look forward to, who tell you what you should think and do. Till 18 you see the life from some one else's point of view.
You have to study cause your brother is in IIT and you are expected to carry on the family tradition!
You cannot have a night out at a friend's place if he is a guy cause, umm.... actually i haven't been able to understand this till date, why?
You cannot kiss a guy. What if you get preggers? :-o
You cannot talk about sex, cause hello! it is a hush hush subject as your parents think it is a taboo.
And only when you come out of that shell, do you get to see the world through your eyes, form your own opinions, frame your own choices. And that's when my friend, the real life has begun for you, the life as you will choose it, the life as you will mould it.
You know you never wanted to get into IIT but into photography classes. And that's what you gonna do now.
You can stay at a guy's place cause you know he is a friend and it is okay to stay at a friend's place, boy or girl.
You have gained enough knowledge that kissing doesn't cause pregnancy.
And it is okay to talk about sex cause in a few years you are going to get married or get laid(in a crude way of saying it).
So technically speaking you have lived what, just seven years of your life!!! Out of which three to four went into college, when you were getting, ummm...what shall I say, trained for the life ahead. You have the whole life in front of you. And if you are "waiting" for your life to begin then you are the biggest fool on earth.
I am not here to find myself. How can I find a thing which is not even created yet? I am here to create myself.
And in the process of creating myself I don't wanna put some deadline in front of me that by 25 I should have a proper job. By 30 I should be married. By 33 I should have two kids. Gosh! It is my life for chrissake not some time bomb that I am sitting on. I can go to a college at the age of 28 if I want. Simply cause I want to.
"Simply paying the bills and living isn't sufficient"
I feel that my better days are coming ahead. I know I will be a Superstar in my own life. Life as I will make it! :)
And as the popstar Pink would say it:
"Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life."
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life."
