I am not fine anymore...

I am not fine anymore...


I am fighting a fight within myself.


I am fighting to keep the memories that are just passing by.


I am fighting to remember the look in your eyes.


I am fighting to keep my palms moist of the sweat when we were holding hands.


I am fighting to keep myself one piece when your memories are tearing me apart.


I am fighting not to be with you.


When you asked me to go, it was you who never left.


When I am all alone, I say things to you that you may never hear.


We had so many beautiful memories, but the only memory left with me is when you were going away.


I want to hate you,


I shout at you while I am vacuuming my house.


I don't feel you anymore, even if you are like this storm inside me.


I will wait for you forever, but I wish that you never come back.


I know I will never be fine anymore.

The girl in yellow slippers

She is a nice girl.
She loves to play guitar.
She is pretty.
She climbs two steps at a time.
She walks straight into the puddles of water and not around them.
She stops to give alms to the old man on the sidewalk.
She loves rain.
Her mother cooks cereal for her every morning.
She puts on her jeans and goes to college every day. She loves it.
She has crush on a guy in her class who steals a glance at her when she is not noticing.
She hates make up.
She hates long nails.
She likes to dress casual.
She loves her younger sister.
She cries a bucketful everytime she watches 'Titanic'.
Her favourite romantic movie is "When Harry met Sally".
She can listen to Whitney Houston and Adele all night long.
She's crazy about Michael Jackson and cried her eyes out the day he died.
She likes to write in her diary and keeps it locked.
She comes back from college at 7 in the evening.
She puts on heavy makeup.
She puts on long artificial nails.
She puts on a revealing dress.
She goes to a place where she is welcomed and noone looks at her peculiarly.
There is a different man waiting for her this time.
He is the English professor from her college.
She won't be able to go to college from tomorrow.
She will never be able to see the guy she had crush on.
She is the girl in yellow slippers.